I read my own blog and saw a disconnect--where I recognized that a foreign shooter (Australian) who was inspired by President Trump after a fashion might exist, but somehow didn't take seriously the idea that Trump was capable of utilizing his stochastic terrorism chops to foment a civil war right here in the off-chance he was thwarted in his political goals. This is my blind spot--the disconnect.
If Trump does influence mosque shooters in New Zealand or Canada, how can I deny the idea that radicalized people could act as a kind of unit (sporadically, if not in any organized sense) here and wherever in this country given the right triggering historical event? I have to understand that these people aren't like me--but have somehow always incorporated some idea of violence into their lives, like some racist whites who think a race war is always nearly immanent, even though that is not realistically a thing. He has already inspired terrorism here (the mail bomber, the synagogue shooter).
This follows Trump's rhetorical flow--he downplays the NZ terrorist with one phrase, and then returns to the idea of nonwhite invasion that sparked the act of terror. I was half-assed in understanding the enormity of Trump's fascism, which enabled me to ignore how it might not only spur violence elsewhere, but effectively maintain a heightened sense of radical need for an Iron-Fisted Daddy figure by stirring shit up here.
Trump is not remorseful about his rhetoric, because it serves his policies. Fascism is built on lies, sometimes even ironic ones. This is also a fatal disconnect--we laugh ourselves to death and underestimate the intent. Of course it could happen here, wrapped in a flag and carrying a cross.
We dispose of these things so preemptively that we fail to watch the dynamics at play. Of course fascism is a thing. The disconnect, the valley of untruth, the gulf of pretending things are better than we know, needs to be cut off.